Mahaba

"Nimezama, nimezama,
kwa bahari ya mapenzi,
Waganaga nimemaliza,
Wa makombe na hirizi.............
Wakunituliza simwoni lakini yupo...."

It is a feeling to relish,
When even in the lowest of your lows,
You can find something good in your life.

Family, friends, lovers and all the people who surround you,
Constantly urging you on and filling your life of the AHHH! moments.

And although at times life can be a bitch,
She can be quite a good bitch worth the spanking some times........

Love life xoxoxo

When I grow up?

When i grow up,

I will deal with you in the exact same way you dealt with me,
I will give you equal measure of what you gave to me,
I will make you as miserable as you made me,
I will have it in for you........

And when I'm done being grown up,
I will step back and see how you deal with it.......

Oh! how i cant wait to grow up..........
Just you wait and see me Grow up!

Living for.........

The tender touch of a loved one?
The reassuring words from someone who cares?
The satisfaction that comes when you feel like you doing alright?

What is there in this ever changing world to live for........

Everything seems so ellusive and distant,
Unreachable.

Like a void sucking you in,
Try as you may you may, you will never get away.

So this is how i see it,
Surround your self with all the people you love,
and the assholes you want to suck the life out of you wil never come close.

Laugh even when you want to cry,
That way the fuckers who try to get something to use against you will never have a clue what.

Make love as often and in as many different places and positions,
its the fire that ignites passion.

But most importantly,
live for LOVE.

TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED

one love xoxoxo

Tired

Today I woke up tired......

I do not know why but i was so fucking exhausted.

I do not want to think,
I do not want to work,
I do not want to talk to anyone.

Lemme tell you whats making me so tired:
im tired of buying my own drinks everytime i go out
im tired of being alone and single
im tired of feeling so empty
im tired of not having enough sex
im tired of not having enough of what i want and what i need

But most of all........

Im just fucking tired of being so fucking tired

Ever Wonder?

Ever wonder,
What it would take to be what you want to be?
To do the things you want to do?
To be with the person you want?

I sometimes wonder.......

Why does shit got to be so fucking hard?

I think if you know the answer to these questions
Then you're rocking life.

To life.

Have a good day.

Mental Masturbation........

I borrow this phrase from a very good friend of mine, a friend who has inspired a lot of deep thought in me.......things that i have never really paid much attention to in the past now seem to fascinate me all the more now and then when your mind is on over drive and those thoughts keep running through your head and you are compelled to share it with some then you are said to be mentally masturbating.................................